I am...

I am a sinner and a saint who sees the bad in everything,
I wonder what is approaching us in our numbered days,
I hear shrieks and wails of agony from the dismay around us,
I see flames and torture,
I want a place of tranquility,
I am a sinner and a saint who sees the bad in everything.

I pretend that life will get easier,
I feel afflicted by pain and darkness,
I touch the tapestry between life and death,
I worry that I will be stuck here in this dark abyss forever,
I cry when angels deserve to die,
I am a sinner and a saint who sees the bad in everything.

I understand the dark in life,
I say this is only the beginning of our suffering,
I dream of a time when I dont feel so much evil and madness in my soul,
I try to embrace the darkside to calm the animal in me,
I hope the war between the animal and the good side inside me ends,
I am a sinner and a saint who sees the bad in everything